Sunday, February 27, 2005

here ya Go

In an effort to prove my oddness to all, here is a but of what i was thinking on my way home in the dark from getting my schedule.................................
I was driving along, and looked at curb. I saw the sewer entry things, and started thinking about what would happen if i saw something coming out of one. That proceeded to become what would happen if i saw something bloody or even like a hand or something. I decided that i would probably scream very loudly and stop extremely fast-like. Which made me look in my rear view mirror and see if there was a car close behind me, which there was. Shortly after that thought i got to the stop light and started stopping quickly, to which the car behind me got closer than they had before..........
sometimes i just daydream at stoplights to go from 0-60mph and ram into the car infront of me. or dream of death by car accident. but only if i was the only who got injured, like hit a tree or something, or a parked car...............
ok enough of that

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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Thoughts to ponder from youth group

God doesn't offer you eternal life; you're just stuck with it.

All you get to choose is where you spend your time............

Ok, so what is "God's Plan"?

Isn't it more like everything is under God's control? So doesn't everything that comes to be be God's will, therefore His plan? There are many different paths to take, but you might not take the right one.

The one God knows to be best is what most people call "God's Plan", but is it really.......

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GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank Jesus they are only midterms..... wait...............that still means they are end of the quarter ones!!! OH NO!!!!
We got grades in the mail today...... and two classes werent that good, not at all.....
I am an A student, with an occasional B in there, and I got on this report:
Bible~ A
Calculus~ A-
Chemistry~ D+
Career Ed~ A+
English12~ B+
Choir~ A
Anatomy~ D
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GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My mom said that the teachers of those two classes are honest ones and say when students arent giving their all, and in Chem I have a 4 in effort, which equals poor, and a 3 in Anat, which is the equivalent of fair.
Alyssa may just get the thing she requested of me, to get bad grades so she could be Salutatorian......... dang
meh
i'll live

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Monday, February 21, 2005

Today's "Streams in the Desert" devo......

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him. (Psalm 37:7)

Have you prayed and prayed, and waited and waited, and still see no evidence of the answer? Are you tired of seeing no movement? Are you at the point of giving up? Then perhaps you have not waited in the right way, which removes you from the right place --- the place where the Lord can meet you.
"Wait for it patiently" (Romans 8:25). Patience eliminates worry. The Lord said He would come, and His promise is equal to His presence. Patience eliminates weeping. Why feel sad and discouraged? He knows your needs better than you do, and His purpose in waiting is to receive more glory through it. Patience eliminates self-works. "The work of God is this: to believe" (john 6:29), and once you believe, you may know all is well. Patience eliminates all want. Perhaps your desire to receive what you want is stronger than your desire for the will of God to be fulfilled.
Patience eliminates all weakness. Instead of thinking of waiting as being wasted time, realize that God is preparing His resources and strenghthening you as well. Patience eliminates all wobbling. "He touched me and raised me to my feet" (Daniel 8:18). God's foundations are steady, and when we have His patience within, we are steady while we wait. Patience yeilds worship. Sometimes the best part of praiseful waiting is experiencing "great endurance and patience...... joyfully" (Colossians 1:11).While you wait, "let [all these aspects of] patience have her perfect work" (James 1:4 KJV), and you will be greatly enriched.

Hold steady when the fires burn,

When inner lessons come to learn,

And from this path there seems no turn --

"Let patience have her perfect work."

hmmm, nice timing, if i does says sos mahselfs..........

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Sunday, February 20, 2005

answers

so this is up for discussion. as in help!
when you have something that you want God to give you an answer on, like you won't proceed without His blessing, how do you know if you have it or not? Any older, wiser, ideas from any of you who read this?
Like what are ways that you can talk to God and know what the answer is? Any personal experience in this area would be cool to know too, like if you have had this or not........

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Saturday, February 19, 2005

whatever

My sister's boyfriend asked her to marry him. Thankfully she said no. They have only been a couple since, oh, the beginning of the year. She asked him if he were drunk, and he told her that he would know what he was asking even if he was drunk.

yeah, thats all i can think of right now
write more later, i guess

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Monday, February 14, 2005

Chaucer, I believe

But anyways, if things are so temporary, why not do that which brings you happiness? Or perhaps contentment rather than happiness...? Sigh. To love and to be in love... two melodies that an easy, beautiful harmony form, it seems.



i have no clue where i found that, but i dont think i wrote it........

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Saturday, February 05, 2005

poetry, kinda

2-24-04
I am this close to falling off the edge.
This close to giving up.
The only thing keeping me from falling
Is God.
He loves me and without that love
I would be nothing.
Have nothing.
Do nothing.
Only He keeps my mind from going places it doesn't need to be.
I am mortal
Flesh
Weak
He is eternal
Spirit
He is strength
My shoulder to cry on
My helper in times of distress
My punisher when I do wrong
The only one who always loves me
My giude
My light
My love
My life
My existence
Saturated
Transfixed
Whole
Love

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stuff i found in a journal in my room
2-23-04
Why can't I keep my secrets?
Why must I someone tell?
Do I need to share my secrets?
Is it important that I tell?
Am I as clear as glass
Or as see through as a pane?
Can I ever keep my thoughts inside
Or must they fall like rain?
Are my emotions all that necessary
For everyone to hear?
Do they need the every thought, the deed,
The trials, pain, and fear?
Do they need the love and heartfelt longing
Of a soul like mine?
Do they need the agony and loss
Of every yearn and pine?
Do I say it just for sympathy,
Or is it because I need to tell?
Or is it because if I don't say, then no one will ever know.......

2-23-04
Have you ever had a day
When things just won't go away
And the thoughts floating 'round in your head
Keep making you mad
Or just plain old sad
And you sure have no clue what to do?

You want something to break
Maybe 'cus of heartache
But you can't something that works.
So you keep it inside
Like it's something to hide
Until it all boils out over you.

What do you do then?
Do you tell a close friend?
Do you run to your Saviour and LORD?
He who knows all your cares
And your number of hairs
And who ever will watch out for you.

If to Jesus you run
To the One living Son
He will hold you 'till you feel alright.
Life won't always be great
But He never will hate
Because Jesus is love, O so true.

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